Pain just seems to be an ongoing part of the cancer experience. I’m not one to use this blog to complain but sometimes I just want to say, “pain, pain go away”. Unlike the children’s poem about rain, I do not want it to come back another day. Ever. We all have little every day aches and pains as we age but some of my pains are a direct result of cancer treatments. I know that the Beatles said to “let it be” and that Elsa said to “let it go” but honestly sometimes it’s just plain hard to ignore or forget. So, what do I do?
I’m not sure there’s an answer to that question but I try to find someone who is dealing with a lot more pain than I am, then try to be thankful that even though I hurt someone else is hurting a lot worse than me. My feet give me a lot of problems due to lingering neuropathy from chemotherapy. I have to step carefully and make sure I always wear good shoes. Painful problem, right? This summer I saw a lady sitting on the beach in the surf. When she stood up, I also noticed that she had two prosthetic legs. Not only did she get herself up out of the surf on those legs but she ran through the sand up to her beach cottage. My neuropathy didn’t seem so bad after all.
Yes, the pain is here to stay and I have to deal with it but by the grace of God I am still here! I’m alive and able to enjoy my family and friends. So, to go back to the poem about rain…I think today I’ll just go out and play anyway regardless of the rain or the pain.
Blessings, Cindy J